Showing posts with label Analog. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Analog. Show all posts

Monday, March 7, 2016

We live half at sea.

(Or how  I came to go to the same beach twice with two different girls)


 

I first met Mem in an art exhibit at West Gallery. She came with his brother and her boyfriend, whom I met years ago when I went to spend a week at my cousin's town down in the suburbs. My cousin told me long ago that I should meet her, we'll click; but the socially anxious recluse me didn't really pay attention to anything with new human interaction involved.

And then we talked - and talked - after we were formally introduced, as if we knew each other for a very long time. There's a certain comfort in her words, the way they come out of her mouth, the way they sound, the way she articulates certain sounds. It felt like she was laying down her heart, her whole being.

People thought we've been friends for a very long time then, but we just met. We wore the same eyeglasses.

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I first met Sue in a language class at the University. Her hair was straightened and down to her shoulders back then. I came to class early, and there she went coming in through old creaking doors with her chatty lady friends. My eyes were on her. She looked like someone who doesn't want to be there, someone who doesn't want to be with the people she was with.

I cannot really remember when we started to talk to each other, call each other by name even. I want to remember but I think it doesn't matter. It's like the days before I met her didn't exist. And before I knew it, I started to ache for her and love her, wanting so much not to let anything hurt her.

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It's so magical how these relationships are borne from nothing.

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There's an island in the far south where low tides are extreme, you can walk more than a mile from the shore but the water is still ankle deep. The sky was blue and grey when I went with Mem; the sky was seafoam and blue when I went with Sue. But the sunset was the same calm sunset, gifting the star lit sky to our tired wandering souls.

Sunday, February 21, 2016

I love you, but they made you a hype.

Found film rolls: Sagada, January 2014

I and my sick sense of ownership of things and places I can't really own: When some movie made use one of my safe places, my heart broke, feeling like the world have robbed from me something really precious, and I miss it, I miss it so much.

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Limbless

I long for isolation, some place far away, some place unfamiliar; it doesn't matter. I feel limited. My hands can't keep up with my head. I feel horribly lacking. And I shouldn't.

     

Friday, August 30, 2013

Halides

A night walk in one of my secret sanctuaries along the streets embellished with prostitutes, white and colored devils, nightclubs and massage parlors with extra service. But beyond the filth a morally exaggerated person would see, is such a beautiful and welcoming part of the city.

Saturday, April 27, 2013

Remember when Icarus fell?

Snippets from Jojo Barja's Sitting On A Bird's Back.

Monday, January 7, 2013

She casts her spells on hotel beds

Hum, hum, the voices in her head.

My most luxurious aunt ever.

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Before October ends.

"I am so hungry for a big creative burgeoning burdened love."
 - Sylvia Plath


1. Ashtrays are bestfriends
2. A rainy walk at Cavite 1
3. Malate Church
4. Malate church (detail)
5. A rainy walk at Cavite 2
6. Manila Bay
7. I wear Sue
8. Neighbors
9. Coffee afternoons 1
10. After Laboratory Period
11. Coffee afternoons 2
12. You're Lost Little Girl

Friday, October 26, 2012

Friday 666

1. Me, off to the studio; 2. Dated cobblestones in the walled city; 3. An abandoned building in Anda Street

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Forgive me, mother, I have sinned.

Rainy day walks and solitary museum visits.